まあるい目
めがねのむこうの
スクリーンのむこうの
でも今までで
一番ちかくに来た
お父さん
お父さんのお母さんのことを
話したいから
お父さんも知りたいから
お父さんはあやまりたいから
お父さんもさがしているから
朝顔のやさしさを
ずっと　19のときから
心の奥そこに
ひみつとして
もってきたから
だからお父さんも一緒に
旅路にいる
私は急に気付いた
まあるい目をみて
しばらくして
お父さんはだから
朝がおのために
ずっとやさしかった
だれも気付かないけど
わたしも気付かなかったけど
ふみにじったこともあるろう
ずっとだれも気付かないほど
朝顔をたたえて
いきてきた

asagao

Round eyes
over his glasses
over the computer screen.
Closest proximity than any distance I can remember.
He wants to talk about his mother
for the first time.
He wants to know.
He wants to say sorry
to his father
to me.

He is searching for
a kindness of asagao (morning glory).
In old photos
he laughs like I donʼt know, together with me.
Since he was 19
in the depth of his heart
he has held asagao
his secret.
He is too
on this journey.
As I look at his round eyes
I realized
he has been kind for the sake of the asagao.
No one realized.
I didnʼt realize.
I might have stepped on the asagao
on him
silently to the extent no one realized.
He and my mom often said
kind people donʼt succeed
but he wants me to be
the kindness of asagao.